YVSON

"… Within me there lay an invincible summer."

Sun, 19 May 2013 14:58:00 -0400

“… Within me there lay an invincible summer.”

How morning sounds to me

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:01:55 -0400

How morning sounds to me

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Thu, 16 May 2013 02:25:12 -0400

Look back and toast : "To our lost youth"

Mon, 13 May 2013 01:44:00 -0400

They say time will ease all the pains, I doubt that. The pain of regret - the more time passes, the deeper it sinks in the loop of self-hatred.

There’s a silver ring on my ring finger. It was a gift from Mack when we were seventeen. We were best friends even though - now I realized - I felt more than I should have towards him at the time.

I have no fear confronting my feelings. In grade 12, I told Daniel from the hockey team I was attracted to him, and in my first year study of business administration, I told Julien I adored him.

To me love is always bitter-sweet, a burden of thought, yet an embrace and acceptance of each other’s flaws, and it sublimates the bodies and minds into one - this is my understanding of love.

However, I have never been loved. And frankly, I have never loved anyone. perhaps because of that, my definition of love sounds too… idealistic? I simply couldn’t believe love can be extracted from a life of a twenty something year old person. At least I think time and experience couldn’t allow them.

I have never been jealous of my friends’ love life. Although, I am jealous of what they could look back in the future and toast: “To our lost youth.” - the sharing the sense of history of their prime.

I am afraid one day I will look back and couldn’t find memories of myself ever live for; regretting.

meeresstille: by Serge Marshennikov

Sat, 11 May 2013 23:00:29 -0400

meeresstille:

by Serge Marshennikov

Adam touched her while he was looking at me as if he was trying to demonstrate something, showing me...

Sat, 11 May 2013 22:49:58 -0400

Adam touched her while he was looking at me as if he was trying to demonstrate something, showing me how to transfer the attractiveness of a woman to become the desire of men; how to be passionate about such creation.

I should start writing again.

Sat, 11 May 2013 00:33:20 -0400

I should start writing again.

The Lamb of Columbia

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 13:14:15 -0400

The Lamb of Columbia

Agrhh. I must say, its quite disappointed when I found out kaidan admired Shepard as a good friend...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 02:21:22 -0400

Agrhh. I must say, its quite disappointed when I found out kaidan admired Shepard as a good friend at the dinner. Where is the gooddamn romance? I don’t wanna replay the whole thing again…

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Wed, 24 Apr 2013 23:05:18 -0400

I want to embrace him and take a deep breath. I told him and he knew, back then I adored him. And...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 22:52:25 -0400

I want to embrace him and take a deep breath.

I told him and he knew, back then I adored him. And now I start to think whether if I have been abusing such awareness of him.

I want to promise him an adventurous summer, smile at him, smell his skin and maybe sleep with him. Sleep with a man.

I don’t like him but the idea of him.
That is my final excuse.

Delusion

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 23:39:00 -0400

In my final exam of International Marketing, I wrote:

“The freedom of choice is a delusion.”

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Mon, 22 Apr 2013 23:30:56 -0400

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 14:09:52 -0400

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Fri, 12 Apr 2013 03:12:57 -0400

Whatever Gets You Through The Night

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 02:36:15 -0400

You have nothing to do so you drop a few tears and occupy yourself with a pocket full of sadness.

Whatever gets you through the night.

You are seeking another excuse that would fulfill the purpose of waking up next morning.

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Sun, 07 Apr 2013 01:46:18 -0400

You're pretty.

Sat, 06 Apr 2013 21:14:29 -0400

Naw, but that’s flattering, thanks - I guess it’s good to hear that other than from my mother.

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Sat, 06 Apr 2013 13:42:16 -0400

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This is the point where I look back my twenty years of existence and say: “everything is just turned...

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 00:00:31 -0400

This is the point where I look back my twenty years of existence and say: “everything is just turned out to be fine”.

This is the point where all those sorrows I had been through suddenly become laughable.

This is the point where I still need to tell myself to move on.

Happy 21st Birthday to myself.